thank you pu God

I am so thankful now that i feel so relieved after everything I've gone through. A lot of people would say that this is really my year where I could say a mixture of happiness and sadness. I was dumped, graduated from my MA, got married and pregnant, left by my husband for work and the worst, lost my baby. woooaaahhh! I never thought I would experience all of these things this year and I hope I will be having a great year, 2012, ahead of me. Anyway, I will be 30 that time. Thanks to my husband who was so great last night telling me how God loves us with all the struggles we have been through.

The pain of not being with my husband is the most painful part of my life which made my life so miserable. Thank God he realized that he needs to be a husband to me because I feel so alone when he left me here. I changed everything in me when I marry him and I was left with nothing. Thank God that those people I turned my back on are still here helping me out with my situation. God is so good because He never leaves me. I am so thankful that my husband finally realize that I need strength from him and all he has to do is to be strong for me and remind me of all the things I have been telling him about God's challenges on people. He was so good telling me how God loves us and all I need to do is to give everything to Him and let Him do everything. We just have to trust him. I am so happy with the transformation of my husband and the best thing I've heard from him last night is he learned it from me. He has changed because of me and he loves me so much.Those words make me feel alive and having the energy to live again. I really had a difficult time picking all the pieces of myself but having him makes it easier for me.

I love him...he told me that he is so lucky that I love him and so he does. I just remember what I read from my friend's stat in fb that it's ok to love until it hurts...because after the hurt, only love is the one left and I think that's what I felt which my husband had felt on me. I love him so much...he is my life and my happiness...I just have to wait for 11 months for him to come home. With 11 mos, I have plans for myself. I will be in school on thr 30th of january, after my 30th birthday, and hopefully bought a second hand car which I will name after my baby's name Marcus so I would feel he will always be with me and I have somebody with me who will never left me. I just hope God will help me to have it for me to start a new life. I will work hard to save for my next pregnancy and hopefully God will give us that child.When my husband gets back, he will be staying for 2 years here and work...instead of going somewhere else...thank you God. I just hope this will be realized. I always believe that when we work things together, everything will be ok...for me...for both of us because we love each other. Thank you pu God...I just hope next year, I will be a better person who loves God and who loves my husband and my child...wherever they are. I miss my baby...I miss my mahal ku...Thank you pu God...